My life was in shambles and pursuit of happiness gave it colors

My life was filled with porn, music, cigarettes, late night drivings and high ambitions. Every morning I wore a honourable Man’s mask and went to my job. Every day I walked with high head, low self-esteem, bad confidence and a fake smile on my face [to avoid encounters].

I was perfectly accepted by my profession, elders and society.

Boom ! I got divorced. I became an outsider. I got isolated. And all, left me on my own. It all came down to re-evaluating myself from ground up. I had lived most of my life by this day, actually 30 years of hard work’s life. And at this point, re-evaluating everything from ground up was a risky thing to do.

It is life — you got to choose at some point which side you are on.

Pursuit of happiness

It is not money, not health, not rank, not power and not at all 100 days of non-stop physical challenge in the gym. I have done all the challenges and enjoyed almost all the power in the world. Nothing saved me back then from falling and nothing can save me from hitting rock bottom in future also.

Irrespective of the certainty you add or the wall you build around you, the bottom of this world is always open to you. And no matter what you do, you can still fall down, real bad.

If you do not stop and re-draw your plan to live your life your way, you will keep hitting down. And you will keep making your existence a little more miserable.

The only reliable way of finding happiness is — growing ONE step every day.

What is my colour

I love sincerity, honesty, one face personality, abnormality and stupidity. The childhood-ness in people, I love it. And I hate, people becoming or acting the older-Me-way.

My colours are becoming a good person, accepting the failures and announcing them in wide open like you are standing naked in the crowd. My colours are to take a pause from my most favourite work and breathe air, serenity and calmness. My colours are quietness, humility and love.

I am a staunch follower of Gandhi’s statement

“Happiness is when; what you think, what you speak and what you do are in harmony.”
— Gandhi

So is everybody’s life. Some manage to gather courage to speak their heart out. Some fail to find the meaning and keep running towards the dark hole of a greater rank, bigger fort or a stable life, all our life.

Conclusion

Life never gets stable. If somebody claims it is stable, he is lying. We are humans and we never manage to find that un-breakable point we strive all our life.

Let your life be like it is "right now". Do not try to change the things that are beyond your control. Find a quiet place around you, sit there, listen to bird chirps and reflect on your bad habits that stop you from growing every day. And then — GROW !

Grow in calmness, humility, humbleness, truthfulness and love. And let the world around you, fix your future for you.