I am not a good person

Bad by Maria Teneva

Recently I made a commitment to build Laurel Home School. Which I have been failing and now giving up.

I also said, I will be following #TweetConnection challenge and I am failing here too.

I am lacking the energy to get up and go to say my prayer in time. Always lazy and feeling dull before the prayer.

I steal money at times. I use my wife’s credit card without her permission to buy domains and gift courses around.

I am not very honest to friends, family and my boss. I am hiding things feeling I will get hurt if I disclose them.

I am not calling my neighbour home, not calling friends home and I am not quite welcoming.

I am not having the pain, which I so loudly claim. I do not really feel bad about the poor getting hurt and the richer hurting them. It is all a drama and nothing else.

Things are deteriorating

Iceland by Luke Stackpoole

I am helpless. I will continue to lie and I will not be able to curb it. I will continue to hurt close friends / subordinates and bosses and I will not be able to fix it. I will continue delaying prayers and I will not feel bad about it. I am helpless here.

Allah, knows, my strength. He knows, my goodness and my badness. He knows, I am more bad and less good. He knows, I am incomplete and I do not deserve a good life here after.

Allah knows it all.